Iíve said all my ďHail MaryísĒ and Iíve recited all the right prayers.
Iíve done a lot in the name of God to gain this solace from your stares.
So break bread as I take unholy communion once more -
As righteous as filthy rags bleeding on the floor.
Iím sitting ripe, sitting fresh in my mire. Behold the poison untold.
Iíve tried to show the world just how great a man can be,
but this great man Iíve charaded is the farthest thing from me.
THE MAN THAT IíVE SHOWN IS A MAN I DON'T KNOW
So shall it be: Sown lies shall reap.
Honor has died with integrity.
What can I say? That Iíve lived what Iíve told?
They bought me, but I hate the manner through which I was sold.
I know exactly what to do. I know exactly what to say. I believe every word Ė itís just so hard to obey.
Trojan horse lies filled with big butterflies
and they bought me. They took the bate.
Hook, line, and false, flaky, dimple-creased smile.
Sit back and enjoy the show! Iíll have you hooked too, in just a little while.
Iíve lived all these lies. No more compromising.
I know what to do. I know what to say.
I believe every word; itís just so hard to obey!
I know what Iíve created - this mess that shadows me -
It leaves my conscience tainted! I want authenticity, integrity.
Jesus, forgive me.
My honor has died with my integrity.
Lyrics by Darin Keim, Music by Staple
Behind the Song:
"I wrote these lyrics during a really low spiritual point. My public life onstage revolved around encouraging others to work hard to overcome their struggles. My private life, the one I was truly living, did not come close. I was at a very hypocritical place, and I knew that my character was suffering because of it. These lyrics served as my accountability to make the two lives one. I want to be a man of integrity at all times, whether Iím around people or no one at all." - Darin Keim (Staple)